Falling into Grace
The seeker should not stop until her finds. When he does find, he will be disturbed. After 
being disturbed, he will be astonished. The he will reign over everything. – The Gospel of Thomas
…Before we try to change anything about ourselves, we must first begin to know who and what we are…by finding out what… we are, we step into a dimension of consciousness that brings an end to needless suffering….
So…I’m sitting here on a stool…when I look into what I am, I don’t really knoew. I find that I’m an unfathomable mystery. I find that I could put a name onto myself… I could come up with many descriptions for what I am, but really, all of these are just thoughts. When I look underneath the veil of thinking, what I find is that I am a mystery. In some ways, I disappear. I disappear as a thought. I disappear as an imagines someone. What I find, if I’m anything at all, is that L’m a point of awareness, recognizing that everything I think about myself isn’t really what I am I recognize that the next thought that I have could bever truly describe me.
What do you find when you look underneath the veil of your thoughts? What do you really find when you open up to something beyond your mind? What happens when you become still and inquire, without just jumping at the next thought? Quietly ask, “What am I, really?” Isn’t that moment absolute stillness? And aren’t you completely aware of that stillness? And isn’t it obvious that we don’t go to our minds, that what we are is something spacious and of amazing mystery, amazing wonder, that we are a still, quiet point of awareness and consciousness? Within this consciousness, within this space of stillness, many thought can and do appear. Many emotions can and do appear, many ways that we could imagine in our minds that we know. But reallt, it’s all imagination. How do we know it’s all imagination? Because when we stop imagining, it disappears. When we stop naming ourselves, who we think we are disappears until we begin to name ourselves again. But when we stop and we look, what’s obvious is that we’re just the looking, an open space of awareness, and nothing more…..
–Adyashanti